Okay, here we go. I’m sitting in my 2011 Honda Civic right now outside a QuikTrip in Kansas City, it’s 34 degrees and raining sideways, my phone’s at 6%, and I still have tears drying on my cheeks because number 7 on this list just hit me again. Buckle up, this is gonna be chaotic.
When Our God Is an Awesome God and I Was Failing Algebra II (Age 16)
Junior year I was 100% convinced I was gonna flunk out and end up living in my mom’s basement forever. Like, crying-in-the-bathroom-stall level panic. Then my teacher—Mrs. Hernandez, total legend—slips me this note that just says “Isaiah 41:10” and somehow I passed the final by two points. I still don’t know how. Our God is an awesome hat Time Our God Is an Awesome and I Totaled My Truck Drunk
Yeah, I’m just gonna say it. 24 years old, hammered after a breakup, wrapped my F-150 around a telephone pole. Walked away without a scratch. Cop who showed up? Youth pastor from the church I ghosted five years earlier. Sat in the ditch with me while I ugly-cried. Divine appointment or what? https://bibleproject.com/explore/video/john-316/
When Our God Is an Awesome God Met Me in a Waffle House Bathroom
2019, divorce papers still warm in my backpack, I’m hiding in the stall at 2 a.m. scrolling suicide hotlines. Random lady on the other side of the door starts singing “Our is an awesome off-key through the wall. I laughed so hard I started sobbing for a different reason. Still don’t know her name.
The ER Visit Where Our God Is an Awesome God Used a Crusty Nurse
Appendicitis, no insurance, freaking out about the bill. Nurse with a sleeve of tattoos and zero bedside manner goes, “Honey, I’ve seen millionaires die from this. You’re breathing. Thank somebody.” Then she winked. I knew exactly who to thank.
When Our God Is an Awesome God Sent a Random Venmo
Last month rent was $400 short and my kid needed braces. Woke up to a Venmo from “John 3:16” for exactly $412. No note. Still haven’t found out who it was. I’m crying in this QuikTrip parking lot again typing this. https://988lifeline.org/
Here, have some more because I can’t stop:
- The job I didn’t even apply for that called me
- The pregnancy scare that wasn’t (thank you Jesus)
- The relapse I didn’t pick back up, by literal seconds
- My mom’s cancer going into remission the week we all gave up hope
- Finding my dog after he’d been missing four days in a Kansas blizzard
- That worship night where I felt the Holy Spirit so hard I fell over and didn’t even care who saw
Why I Still Doubt Even Though Our God Is an Awesome God Keeps Showing Off
Here’s the raw part: some weeks I’m still mad at Him. Like, cool, You can part Red Seas but my anxiety still wakes me up at 3 a.m.? Make it make sense. But then I remember these 12 (and honestly like 47 more) moments and I’m like… okay fine, You’re still good.
Look, I’m a mess. I cuss too much, I ghost Bible plans, I ate gas-station sushi last week like an idiot. But every single time I should’ve been done for, our God is an awesome reached down into whatever dumpster fire I started and lifted me up anyway.
If you’re reading this and you’re currently underwater—message me, comment, whatever. I’ll pray for you with my whole messy heart. And maybe go listen to that old Rich Mullins song again, the one that started all this. Turns out He really does reign from heaven above with wisdom, power, and love. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hRy1XstQK6g
Our God is an awesome . Still is. Even when I’m not.
Drop your own story below—I need to hear I’m not the only disaster He keeps saving.
